Pokemon 2000
Nov. 23rd, 2002 06:06 amSo Erica came to me a few days ago with the idea that we don't look at LiveJournal for a week or so, and that we can only post twice in that time period. (I've "let" her post a couple of times about her birthday stuff, and i got to post a couple of "Sci-Fi World" entries, but other than that...) I think it's been a good thing so far, but i never realized how much i look at my friends list. Sometimes i get online now and can't seem to find anything to do. (Though i did discover the message boards at MKaku.org: Great place for the amateur physicist in me to babble and spout my own theories. ;) ) Anyway, i was planning on saving up any posts i wanted to make, but i haven't really wanted to make any until now.
I haven't been out of the house much in a while, but got to do so today, and it was nice. Watched Erica spend her birthday gift certificates. Got a paperback to read, and some soda and pork rinds. We went out to eat too, to a buffet place, and tonight they had the holy grail; corn nuggets! Aww, yeah. I've been looking for some more of those for years. I ate a ton of them.
Came back, watched a little tv, read a little, watched "Elizabeth" with Erica. I had a nice day. :)
I don't think that's all i have to say, but the rest is something i'll have to say out loud to those it concerns. ;) But, thanks, though... I don't if it's my conscious decision to feel and be different, or something else, but... Thank you for opening up to me about a lot of things, and just letting me in, in general. I feel much better about a lot of stuff, and about a lot of things i've been thinking about lately. I hope you do keep in mind that i am here, and will always listen. I've not felt that "wall" (whether it was something i created or not) so much lately. And thank you for making my weird resolve to open up in a lot of ways much easier for myself than i expected it to be. Anyway... as i said, something to be said in person, not here where it would be totally lame to make such comments in such a detached way. :) Yeah, i'm more open in LiveJournal too, now, but it's real life where it really counts... :)
And if you're reading this: shame. -s- I bet when i finally read my friends list again, you'll have all kinds of posts all over. :P I know you, you're addicted to LiveJournal. :P ;)
Anyway. From the big scary post i made a few days ago, until now, i believe i've stood by what i planned on doing. Not 100% yet, maybe, but a good 80%, and that's a feat for me. I feel better about some things, concerned about others, but when my emotions concern others, i've definitely been more open, regardless of my fear of what might happen when i speak my mind. I realize that, because i fear the results of saying something, doesn't mean i have to not say anything. What i fear may not happen, or if it does, it would never be as scary as i could imagine it to be. I talk myself out of a lot of things. I don't want to do that anymore.
Things are better in some ways. I'd like things to continue to be, and even improve beyond what it has already. And the fact that i said so is proof that i'm able to do this.
I saw a shooting star. I made a wish. I can see the moon. :)