Sentinel Felicia

It's cool enough that i can have the window open without it affecting the the temperature of the room. So, the window is open and it smells so nice. The crickets are chirping, but in a quiet, not annoying way. I want to share that.

I feel good, physically. Relaxed, the temperature is perfect, the fresh air is great... It feels good to breathe. I might leave the window open and sleep in the fresh air. It will probably get too hot for that as soon as the sun comes up, but maybe i don't care. I want to go ouside, but that's probably not a good idea.

I don't feel like doing anything right now, even though i do have some things i need to. I'm hanging out with some guy in the MUD; he's helping me level up (which i just did: Exp to Level: -3474), but i'm not really doing anything. I just want to lay down and be... but that would mean idle time.

Idle time = time to think
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thinking = yucky

I also don't know whether to stay up as late as possible just to feel like i've had an actual day, or to go to bed early so i'm not just... being idle. But such is life these days; sit around waiting for whatever. Do something, wait for results, do something else, wait some more, wait for things you can't make happen, wait for things you don't want to happen, wait for things you don't know will happen. Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.

I IMed an old friend's screen name, but it wasn't her anymore. :/

A friend of mine, who i was pretty close to at one time, but have not had much contact with in quite a while, wrote today saying that she had a... mishap involving the oven and a ball of fire. She's (mostly) okay and everything, but it sounded really scary. I'm glad she's okay.

It was also really nice that she'd think to send mail to me about it. For some reason, it surprises me whenever she contacts me. I don't know why that is.

It's starting to feel a bit warm in here. Close the window, turn up the fan? Decisions.....

There's meteor shower. I want to look at it, but i have a feeling it would just make me sad. I want to share the meteor shower, too.

I just don't want to be in my room, in my bed, asleep, by myself. It hurts too much.

-Now i'm so empty, there's nothing left to hide...

wave after wave after wave, it's all for her.....

All I want is to keep it like this.
You and me alone
a secret kiss
And don't go home
don't go away
don't let this end
Please stay ...
not just for today ...

never never never never never let me go she says
hold me like this for a hundred thousand million days

But suddenly she slows
and looks down at my breaking face.
"Why do you cry? What did i say?"
"But it's just rain," i smile,
brushing my tears away...

I wish i could just stop ...
I know another moment will break my heart ...
Too many tears
too many times
too many years i've cried for you .
It's always the same
Wake up in the rain
Head in pain
Hung in shame
A different name
Same old game
Love in vain
And miles and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
away
from home
again...

Insert a very cool, clever, and cryptic subject that only a select few would understand here.

( Okay, three, two, one, let's jam..... )