Somebody, please, polish the stars...

Am i the only one that hates that songs hold memories? That hearing a song can make you feel a certain way you did in another time?

Seems to me that most of my music-related feelings are unpleasant. Most of the time, a song that gives me a kind of flashback makes me feel a general unease that i felt, not just during a specific moment, but during the general time when i heard that song a lot. Bringing those feelings back usually isn't fun, and only reminds me how unsatisfied with life i am, and how i wish i was content with myself and my situation.

When i'm happy with life, i don't have time for music; i'm enjoying other things. Maybe that's the whole explanation.

I need to find myself again.

(Oh, by the way, i updated my profile and interests, if anyone cares. :P)

Numb.

    Let's all go in the river,
    a mirror for my disguise....
              To look at her makes me shiver.
              I can see right through her eyes
              in her mind
    she is tongue-tied,
    she won't make a sound
    and believes she can only hide
                             when i turn away.....

    This imagery is haunting me.
              She won't fly away.
     She calls me so pleadingly,
              but i don't... but i don't know her name.....
              Numb.

    I went down to the river
    to wait for her to arise...
    I looked in the mirror,
    and sprinkled teardrops in her eyes.

    Numb.