0713am10242002

[fifthdream]

Earlier tonight i started a drawing that i really think is going to turn out very well.

Also tonight, based on something i saw on tv, i concocted my own kind of kettle corn-type popcorn (you know, sweet and salty), and it tasted pretty good.

A bit ago, i got upset, and i can't even figure out what it was about. I tried to explain what i was upset about, and really, at the same time, i was trying to figure it out for myself. I think i just got more upset and confused, because i was upset and didn't know why. I was just so... frustrated... that's the perfect word. I was frustrated, becasue i was genuinely upset, though not even very much, but i was REALLY having a hard time trying to realize why, or how. I mean, i did have a genuine emotion, and i sort of understood what it was, but not really. It's such a small thing, and nothing to get upset over (and like i said, i wasn't that upset, i was more upset at not knowing exactly what i was feeling), but i really felt weird for a while. Maybe it's a bit more important that i want it to be, or maybe it's something i'm feeling out of context of the situation, or maybe it's something else, but i don't know, and not knowing makes it even more confusing. And not knowing also makes me feel dumb, and that makes it even more weird. What do you do when you have an emotion with no name, and you don't know what it means?

Maybe i'll figure it out soon, and if i do, i'll let you know.....